C'mon, You Can't Be Serious

OK, so here it is in a nutshell: Both of my boys have A.D.D. One of them is actually A.D.H.D.
You think I am exaggerating, right? No, I am not. One has been evaluated and the other has not. Caleb (my youngest) was the most obvious and the one we went ahead and had evaluated. The kid climbs and moves on pure impulse. You can imagine the trouble this gets him into!
Jordan (the oldest) was less obvious. He is such a smarty but refuses to do his homework or school work. I have been certain he is just out to get me and totally defiant, nevermind that he has been this way since DAY ONE of school. Last year (one year after Caleb's evaluation) Jordan's teacher suggested he may have ADD and not just a rebel attitude. I did what every sane parent would do and wrote her off as completely nuts. 2 kids with these issues, that would mean I must be some kind of loser of a mom, right? Only recently, after some reading and some time pondering what the problem could possibly be, I came to the conclusion that there is validity to what that teacher said. If you glued my kids together they have every characteristic of someone with ADD/ADHD. Oh, did I mention my husband was on medication as a child for "hyperactivity?" Does this mean I get to blame him ;) I think the ADD is rubbing off on me these past few years!!! Hey, if you can't beat them.............................
So here is the real kicker - I am completely opposed to medicating my kids (as of now). Notice I said I. It is personal and I have no problem with anyone who chooses this for their own children. I just cannot give it a thought unless I have tried everything else possible. I am however, pro medication for me, the parent - LOL. I know that diet, structure, consistency, routine and discipline are HUGE for these kids. I'm sorry, can someone please define some of those words for me? I have a feeling this stretching and growing time as a parent is going to be painful!!
I am holding on to my dear friends wisdom that the when something is hard it is probably the right thing! Changing diets, developing a schedule and being consistent are beyond HARD!!!
(For me anyway)
I am in the beginning of a Beth Moore Bible Study and am hanging on to the principles I am learning, namely "God is who He says He is, He can do what He says He can do and I am who God says I am." I can't tell you how many times in a day I find myself repeating those in my brain. Like today when I was greeted at school by a noon supervisor telling me Caleb had been given a white slip (the schools most naughty award) for jumping onto a teachers parked car. Nevermind, I think I will stay home and not help his class today, thank you very much!! Only to later ask Jordan what homework he has to finish to have him reply "I can't remember." AAAAHHHHHH........................................can I run away???? How can you not know? Especially when you just left homework club!!!
I have books in front of me to read, a hundred Avon catalogs to deliver, laundry to the ceiling, Bible study to complete, dishes in the sink, an unwalked dog (again), Jordan's unfinished homework (AGAIN), bills to pay - and not enough money, a part-time job to start tomorrow, unfinished business for the middle school booster club, clutter to clear, dirty floors to clean, a friend coming for dinner tomorrow, a clear cut routine and schedule to create for my kids and myself, a new way of feeding my kids to consider, friends I need to call, what else? Hmmm....I am sure I am forgetting at least 20 more things. Too bad stay home mom's have so much time on their hands! I thought I would have a ton of time when I quit homeschooling my son. I have never been more delusional in my life! So here I sit typing on the computer instead of being productive on one of the above. I have to have some kind of outlet, right. Or is this called avoidance?? LOL
I know that God is who He says He is and I am who He says I am. I am His. I am Richard's wife and Jordan and Caleb's mom. I am who he chose for these 2 boys. As hard as the days can be I can think of nothing more awesome than knowing that there is a God who loves me and is right here with me to lead the way. I can't do it but He can. Life is overwhelming but "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." (Psalm 46:1)